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The search for the red box April 28, 2009

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I counted the post boxes I saw on the way to training this morning.
Because I wanted to post something desperately..
And there was none around the route I took from our flat to the bus stop!

But as soon as I hopped onto the bus…
We passed by one post box… and another.. then another..!
There were at least 22 of them… when I remembered to count :P
I wanted so much to get off the bus and pop my letter into it
Or get some strangers who were getting off to do me a favour.
For the first time, I actually long for the bright red post box~!

Sigh.. how odd.

Don’t know why I’m speaking gibberish.
Somehow the brain malfunctioned and couldn’t synchronise the thoughts with actions.
It has been like that for the whole day.
It is so drained.
I am so tired.
But I passed my mock exam!!

April 22, 2009

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Everyone’s having a second job lately…
running a kitchen that is!

But it wasn’t as easy to find a day job,
I realised.
Haven’t got too much choices at all.
I might just have to go where the tide takes me.
And then live in isolation for one year, or two, maybe three.

I need to go somewhere where there are beautiful apartments,
and hopefully an occasional cook.

Silent words April 20, 2009

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I, didn’t like the feelings
of being constantly reminded
that you are not mine, or
that you and I do not belong together, or
that you are you and I am me, which means there are no overlappings between us,
or something along that line.

I, didn’t like being slapped in the face,
every so often.
I, didn’t like being so vulnerable.
I wish I could turn a deaf ear,
or have a heart made of stone.
So that every time this happens,
my heart wouldn’t tremble so vigorously.
But I couldn’t help it,
because I care.

I, didn’t like the feelings
of being an outcast.
You, are the person, I never want to loose.
Instead of saying out loud,
I tell myself in silence.

That is me. That is who I am.
You don’t hear me,
because I keep them deep within.
I protested,
I hate us going separate ways.
But I protested in silence.
I feel like a kid, whose toys were taken away from her, and all she did is watch in silence.

Oh how I wish I could speak.

I wish you could hear…these silent words.

Happy Easter! April 14, 2009

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That was one heck of a holiday!

All started with a great deal of exhaustion and sleepiness… and ended with a greater level of exhaustion and sleepiness.

Had no sleep due to our early flight at 7am which means we had to go to the airport as early as 3am. Got to the coach station to get a coach to the airport but all coaches were fully booked and we didn’t book in advance. Gave me quite a shock and I was brought to full alertness. In the end we had to get a taxi to the airport or miss our flight otherwise.

It was the one and only holiday that I hadn’t plan properly. I booked the tickets, booked the hotel, and that was it. I made no attempt at planning our trip, not checking up places to go and things to do.. It was meant to be random and spontaneous! Haha.. Work has worn me out! The biggest planning I did was buying a travel guide that turned out to be.. rather useless.

But all went well, although we had a bit of problem on a few occasions. The trip was good but three days was too short! Maybe one day I’ll go back for more.  :)

windmill village

updates… April 6, 2009

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Once again, life has come to a point when it has to start all over again.
And the unknown, is kind of scary.
Not knowing where you will be, what you will get,
Or how you will live!
Just not my kind of thing…

Living in the middle of job-hunting + working + evidence recording + studying + a messy room – I wonder which word I could use to pin-point my feelings…

I am so so so tired!
I hope the sunny days will help generate more vitamin H!
H for happiness.

POTATO isn’t spelled POTATO. January 14, 2009

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Saw this advert on the tube…which is rather interesting!

If GH stands for P as in Hiccough
If OUGH stands for O as in Dough
If PHTH stands for T as in Phthisis
If EIGH stands for A as in Neighbour
If TTE stands for T as in Gazette
If EAU stands for O as in Plateau
The right way to spell POTATO should be….



华人海外打拼 三十岁以前不要去在乎的22件事 January 3, 2009

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Adapted from Powerapple 3rd Jan 2008;

1.幼稚 不要怕人说我们幼稚.“成熟”是个吓人的词儿,也是个害人的词儿。成熟和幼稚是对一个人最大而无当、最不负责任、最没用的概括。

2.错误 享受你的错误。

3.浅薄 如果每看一次《泰坦尼克号》就流一次眼泪,每看一次《大话西游》就笑得直不起

4.孤独 这是为自由付出的代价。

5.疯狂 这是年轻人最好的心理调适,只能说明你精力旺盛,身心健康。说你“疯狂”是某些生活压抑、心力交瘁的中老年人恶意的评价,他们就像一部年久修的机器,最需要调适,但只能微调,一次大修就会让他们完蛋。

6.漂泊 漂泊不是一种不幸,而是一种资格。趁著没有家室拖累,趁著身体健康,此时不飘何时飘?

7.放弃 把握的反面就是放弃,选择了一个机会,就等于放弃了其他所有的可能。当新的机会摆在面前的时候,敢于放弃已经获得的一切,这不是功亏一篑,这不是半途而废,这是为了谋求更大的发展空间;或者什么都不为,只因为喜欢这样做,因为,年轻就是最大的机会。人,只有在三十岁之前才会有这个胆量,有这个资本,有这个资格。


9.失业 三十岁以前就尝到失业的滋味当然是一件不幸的事,但不一定是坏事。三十岁之前就过早地固定在一个职业上终此一生也许才是最大的不幸。失业也许让你想起埋藏很久而尘封的梦想,也许会唤醒连你自己都从未知道的潜能。也许你本来就没什么梦想,这时候也会逼著你去做梦。

10.评价 我们最不应该做出的牺牲就是因为别人的评价而改变自我,因为那些对你指手画脚的人自己也不知道他们遵从的规则是什么。

11.不适应 在一首摇滚里有这么一句:“这个城市改变了我,这个城市不需要我。”不要盲目地适应你生存的环境,因为很可能这环境自身已经不适应这个社会的发展了。

12.失败 我的老师曾经跟我说,一个人起码要在感情上失恋一次,在事业上失败一次,在选择上失误一次,才能长大.失败来得越早越好,要是三四十岁之后再经历失败,很可能就来不及了。

13.代价 不是不计代价,而是要明白做任何事都要付出代价。对我们这个年龄的人来说,这绝不是一句废话。否则,要到三十岁的时候才会明白自己曾经付出了多少代价,却不明白为什么付出,更不明白自己得到什么。

14.失意 包括感情上的,事业上的,过分在乎失意的感受不是拿命运的捉弄来捉弄自己,就是拿别人的错误来惩罚自己。

15.缺陷 也许你个子矮,也许你长得不好看,也许你的嗓音像唐老鸭…那么你的优势就是你不会被自己表面的浅薄所耽搁,少花一些时间,少走一些弯,直接发现你内在的优势,直接挖掘自己深层的潜能。

16.误会 如果出于恶意,那么解释也没有用;如果出于善意,就不需要解释。专门说到“误会”倒不是因为一个人在三十岁之前被人误会的时候更多,而是这个年龄的人想不开的时候更多。

17.稳定 三十岁之前就在乎稳定的生活,那只有两种可能,要么就是中了彩票,要么就是未老先衰。

18.压力 中年人能够承受多大压力检验的是他的韧性;年轻人能承受多大压力,焕发的是他的潜能。

19.出国 也许是个机会,也许是个陷阱。

20.薪水 只是给人打工,薪水再高也高不到哪儿去。所以在三十岁之前,机会远比金钱重要,事业远比金钱重要,将来远比金钱重要。对大多数人来说,三十岁之前干事业的首要目标绝不是挣钱,而是挣未来.

21.年龄 现在青年期都延迟到四十五岁了,二十多岁又算得了什么呢?

22.在乎 这是一种拿不起、放不下的心态,它的反面不是放弃,而是天马行空,自由自在,永远保持革命乐观主义的精神。

Why on earth did I choose Pharmacy December 30, 2008

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i got told off for being absent from work.
due to sickness.
now i know, you’re supposed to go to work if you’re not going to die.
there is no ‘sick’ in a pharmacist’s dictionary.
it is a crap life.
that’s what i feel.
a crap job.

December 20, 2008

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i accidentally ‘flushed’ my contacts down the sink, again.
it then saved me from the hassle of soaking them in the solution.
is this called optimism?

today one customer called me ‘petals’.
i think that was very sweet.
so i promised him that i’ll get some branded atorvastatin for him next time as we haven’t got any today.
and certainly not PI.

the good thing about working in a small shop, now i can see.
you got to know most of your customers.
at some point, they become a bit like family.

watched ‘twilight’.
reviews weren’t good, it turned out.
maybe there are always something wrong with the plot.
reviews said so. i don’t really care.
but I kinda like it.
it’s probably the romance.
even though it seemed unrealistic.
but that is the kind of romance we want to watch.
i think..
and i think it was also very sweet.

*also loves the part where edward plays the piano*
it always works!
like, stealing my heart. :P

December 15, 2008

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weekend came and went. too fast.
happy things lasted as long as fireworks would glow.
if only i could savor it a little longer.
but then it went all dark.
reality hit me so hard in the face.
i feel so helpless. powerless.
drowning, and losing my way.
there are a million whys
and suffocation is overwhelming
indulging in self-pity is probably my kind of luxury
who are friends and who are foes
what is good and what is bad
i barely know
all i am asking for, isn’t too much.
just someone to walk with me
and tell me it is okay